I don’t know how to put this exactly. So a few months ago my ex broke up with me. I’ve been going out there and just concentrating on myself. I’ve been doing quite well and I thank the people on this forum for their kind words and support.

I recently hung out with my old friend and it was really awesome. I had plans but ended up just spending the entire day with her. Literally I was supposed to only get lunch with her but ended up just losing track of time. We were able to talk about so many things and it was tons of fun. I’m not good at reading girls but I can kind of feel that attraction is there. She is a good friend of mine and this would be the time when you would say she sounds good you should ask her out. However that isn’t possible since she currently has a boyfriend and I respect her and would not want to hurt her relationship in anyway.

Anyway the point isn’t about what should I do about this girl, however it’s the feeling that arises in me. I’ve noticed it and it just comes out. It really pisses me off because I know I do it. When I like someone a lot, I fucking get scared. And when I fuck up or say something stupid I say a really pathetic sorry. And I just never feel like I’m good enough. I realized this when I realized I was attracted to my friend. And I knew I shouldn’t date anyone until I can fix this confidence of mine. I feel like it’s suffered a lot because of how many failed relationships I’ve been in. I can attract girls but trying to keep them in a relationship is difficult because I feel like I scare them with my I want to be a nice guy or whatever and I want this to stop.

Should I just continue concentrating on myself or should I start practicing not apologizing as much? How can I slowly begin to deal with this? Please anyone help me, I’m sick and tired of being at mercy to my feelings. It rips me apart whenever I feel that feeling. It’s not like I’m unsuccessful or I have no hobbies or I’m uninteresting it’s just my confidence just drops when I’m in front of someone I like a lot. I really hate that about myself. So if anyone has the time, please just help me find a way to be stronger.