Hi Jessp,

Being a sensitive soul on this planet is not easy to begin with !

Your depression comes from not being loved enough as a child by your Dad which made you long for love and approval !!

You tried talking to your Dad and it didn’t work because it is very difficult to convince parents they have made mistakes. Having said that, you need to move forward and not look for approval from others. Read this short article – it will help: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/anita-moorjani/love-yourself-first_b_3787071.html

About love, it comes late for some of us. Love is destined and cannot be forced – be patient and gentle with yourself !. Listen to this song by Josh Groban called Don’t give up – the link is below:

I pray your angels help you find love soon.

God bless !

Dear jessp:
I thought it will never happen to me, having had an even more distrbed life, so it seems to me, than yours… and then i met a good man at 48. Then at 50, following serious relationship and personal ongoing troubles- my first serious psychotherapy. Now at 54 I finally found love- with my husband. Had no idea that could happen. Of course, it didn’t just happen- lots of work involved and mutual goals of healing our early attachment trauma of childhood, individually but working together.

You made a lot of effort and somewhat successful efforts in getting better but obviously- my understanding, something wasn’t done in your work- a full emotional understanding, acknowledgment of your trauma. You wrote “Who hasn’t?” something like that regarding having had a bad childhood. This is – I believe- minimizing, evidence of not adequately processing your significant pain of having been abandoned/ unloved as a child. This injury will keep screaming out for acknowledgment- i too had a few times of enlightenment in my life but went back to depression and such when a new challenge came about.

It takes stronger mental health to get through challenging circumstances than it does to live the easier times. Stronger mental health following deeper healing: DEEPER healing.

All best to you:
anita