You know it’s interesting, we all are struggling to be that perfect person but in reality there is no such thing. 5 years ago I fell in love with a woman who wasn’t completely out of the closet to her family. Our relationship was kept hidden for 5 years, although she always wanted me to meet her family and went back and forth with the idea but fear of course won. Our feelings for each other were mutual and the only thing she was lacking was the tools to feel comfortable around me in public and to her family. Sex wasn’t a motivation, otherwise I wouldn’t have held on for so many years. I felt our relationship was so special and incredible that I didn’t want to let everything we built together, to just go down the tubes.

Angela let fear take over her life because she didn’t want to lose her family because of me and her feelings for me.
I still love you Angela but I can’t have you in my life if we can’t be honest with each other and talk to each other face to face, calmly and peacefully. Without verbal communication, we can’t work on mending our relationship again and also understand that the #1 vital thing in a relationship is that we talk about things and talk about how we are feeling about certain things. This is why our relationship has maybe ended is because the lack of communication. I wish I could read your mind but I can’t, so in the past, I was left to make decisions on my own . If we can get past this really tiny hurdle called fear and just face each other and work things out, then I know we can make things right again. Let’s move on from the past and start anew. We can’t change what happened months or years ago but I know that with love, time, patience and communication we can achieve conquering the fear, one step at a time to where we won’t have any mis-understandings ever again.

I love you Angela! No matter what, I will always love you and want what is best for you. Even if it means that it may in fact be time to let you go if that’s what you want.

For all you readers: I am not looking for negative responses, I am looking for positivity because Angela sometimes comes on these forums to read or write topics as well under a secret alias.

We are looking for words of encouragement and positive feedback. We are both lesbians but Angela is having a hard time telling her family that she is a lesbian, she is #3 out of 9 siblings and she is now 38 years old. She seems to look up to her eldest sibling, her sister because her older sister is married and has many children and is also a Christian but on the other hand Angela has told me that her older sister is very judgmental and I have met her older sister a few times and spent some time with her in the past and yes, her older sister can be judgmental which doesn’t help Angela be confident in herself that her older sister may tear here apart behind her back. i’m not saying Angela’s older sister is a bad person but i don’t know the woman well enough to know if she’s overly judgmental.

Anyway, thank you for reading and I look forward to your positive feedback and encouragement.