Was it me? Will he regret losing me?

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January 14, 2015 at 4:48 am #71294
Maggie Black
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He made me feel crazy.

That in itself is enough to let this go.
Who needs someone to MAKE us feel crazy?
The abortion… oh my this had to hurt. He bore absolutely NO responsibility for something you now have to live with all of your life.
He hasn’t shown anything near to love for you. He is an immature player to be sure.
Living with mama and daddy… ugh.
PLEASE RUN! Run as far away from him as possible emotionally and begin to get some healing for yourself beloved.

You are carrying hurts from this relationship and your body and spirit and emotions need time to heal and repair from it.
He as sucked life from you.
We can forgive him because surely, “He knows NOT what he is doing”. And forgiveness is needed for you to move on and get free from the ties that this relationship has brought you.

This relationship needs to be remembered on some level… so as not to ever fall into this again.

Be strong in yourself.
Love yourself.
Hold your head high.
Do some self care.
Do not get into another relationship until you can heal.

You need time to process this thing you have endured.
Learn to recognize this behavior in men for the future so you won’t ever be drawn into this again.
I wish you the best and pray for your healing and restoration.

I just realized I didn’t answer your question.
The fact you need to know the answer to this makes me realize you need the self care more than ever!

WHO CARES if he realizes he messed up? But NO, he probably won’t because this isn’t about you.
This is about him because all of it is about him.
He is a player and will most likely be for some time.
It is only about you in that you allowed him to treat you this way and that is why my entire post to you is trying to help you see this.
I cannot answer your question about WHY he did this to you.
I don’t think it has anything to do with you in your level of attractiveness.
You may want to look into the possibility that you are putting yourself out there as someone who has low self worth and therefore, players like him will use you.
I know this hurts to hear and maybe I am wrong.
But from what I read from your post it sounds very likely.
- This reply was modified 10 years, 3 months ago by Maggie Black.
January 14, 2015 at 1:56 pm #71353

Yue
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Based on what you said, it sounds like that everytime something happens, you are the one who has to adjust your life style to suit his needs. When you were pregnant, you had to have the abortion. When you found out that he was cheating, you were the one who ended up having to apologise and over look his ways even though you felt terrible on the inside. When you wanted a relationship while he is not ready to commit, you are the one who had to question why you are not enough for him. Now you have to change your application for work because of a decision he made and even after all that you have been through, he’s still not sure whether he wants to be in a relationship.

Is this how you would treat your soulmate?

So I agree with Maggie here is that you should get away as soon as possible as you deserve to be with someone who treats you with respect. Even if you want to salvage the relationship with this person, he is too used to getting his way and it will probably be difficult to trust him due to past histories.

January 14, 2015 at 3:19 pm #71362

Maggie Black
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Yue,
I like the way you listed the points on he actual things she had changed in her life for him. I am thinking maybe codependency is in play here. It’s true… it is always her that is making the adjustments.

January 14, 2015 at 3:32 pm #71364

Saz26
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Davijj6

Was it you? Yes. In that you allowed him to manipulate you and break his promises and your heart again and again. But the cheating, manipulation, emotional cruelty, selfishness and immaturity was all his. I feel hugely for you, I’ve been there too. You wanted to believe, you loved him, you hoped he meant what he said. I hope that one day he regrets how he’s treated you, but that isn’t how you will heal. You will heal when you walk away (emotionally as well as physically) and eject him from your life and your head. You deserve so much better than this. He won’t ever change, certainly not with you. He may never really understand how much he hurt you, or care sufficiently. But you’ve learned an important lesson and if you ever meet anyone who begins to treat you like this, you’ll get out early and find somebody who appreciates you and is capable of behaving like a decent human being! I’m so sorry about the abortion, his lack of support and emotional blackmail was appalling, but at least it means you are not tied to having him your life. Never let him in again, not now, not in 5 years time!

Saz26 xx

January 18, 2015 at 3:14 pm #71545
Johanna Garcia
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I totally feel for you and understand your pain. I went through something similar.

I know your self-esteem is crushed thinking that you just weren’t enough. But get those negative thought out of your head! Instead you need to realize that he wasn’t the right man for you. Why would you want someone who seems extremely selfish and only thinks of himself and what benefits him? What kind of life could you expect with someone like that? He’s showing you his true colors. You can’t change him no one can. People change only when they realize it on their own and truly want to change. Even then change is not easy. So don’t fool yourself. He didn’t change all those other times. What makes you think it would be any different next time around?

Sure, maybe one day he’ll realize grass isn’t always greener on the other side. Maybe it will hit him like a ton of bricks that he let a good woman go. However, you need not to concerned yourself with that. Focus on yourself and your own happiness that no one but yourself is responsible for. Focus on all the good things in your life and truly be grateful for all the opportunities ahead. I know its going to take time but you will heal. When the time is right don’t be afraid to be open to other opportunities. In time, you WILL find a great guy who will value you and see the special woman you are.
- This reply was modified 10 years, 3 months ago by Johanna Garcia.
January 19, 2015 at 2:20 pm #71618

christine
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I really get it too – this situation was so similar to my own.

I know it’s so hard and you think that you’ve already put in 5 years and endured so much long distance that there should be some payoff. That the plans you made and talked about the whole time should’ve meant something to him because they were literally what you had based everything on! That you’re afraid you won’t find anyone else and that if you really were so great, he would want to be with you.

But here’s the thing – being by yourself, being alone is BETTER than staying and continuing to ben over backward to make a relationship filled with lies, hurt, and betrayal work. You can and will be happier alone than you ever will be with him, constantly doubting his behavior and remembering all the hurt that he put you through. That will be absolutely toxic for you! It was absolutely NOT you, this guy has serious problems, insecurities, pathological lying behavior, and probably just a touch of sociopathy.

Maybe one day he will wisen up and realize that he let the best person he can ever hope to have go through his fingertips. Maybe he’ll be full of regret and want to be a better man. Either way though, it doesn’t matter. Let’s say he never regrets his behavior and just moves on to some other girl – well then, be thankful that he’s someone else’s problem now! Some other girl will be taken in and hurt by his deceit, lies, feeling-less behavior, and inability to form real relationships. At least she isn’t you – you’re so lucky to have gotten out now!
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