Sorry… Failed to mention, maybe, a big part…. During the breakup period and asking her to move out… i was on antidepressants (effexer XR) and quit taking them… she thought it was best for me to try meds. But i was done with that, I didnt feel like myself. I even explained that to her after the fact, She said maybe the antidepressants gave me a cloudy view of her.. and that the screaming and pushing was fighting for love… and being online all night was just her outlet to the world.

Thank you Matt. I have been through a million emotions and believe i have done everything in my power. I am starting to believe what adam levine says “the more time we are apart, the more bridges are burnt.” She has said some pretty messed up things to me; “I should have never had a child with you.” Our daughter was 100% not planned.”( this is complete bull shit). That really makes me feel bad… one minute i am the greatest father, the next is that crap. And why in the world would you not try to go to counseling now, I mean, we had a family on the line. An online counselor told me we should try to have an honest open conversation to see where things went wrong, when the screaming and yelling started and why. Unfortunately, when i tried that, she just happen to have a migraine and wanted to talk, but nothing heavy, just a visit. When i got there she got heavy on me and then when i tried to reply…. take a guess……. shut me down, I wasn’t aloud to speak about things. jeez

Slowly thinking it wasnt a mistake.