This sounds like High School games to me. You didnt know this girl long enough to really love her, chances are you were in lust with her not love…..

That does not sound like lust to me, maybe an infatuation-pheromones exist!

it’s hard to ignore some feelings or emotions , however some girls have a handle on them from earlier on than guys.Some use that to be manipulative, others are more sensible.If i were you because i do think i have had a case of infatuation/love/will never know- I would concentrate on anything else but the girl especially that one.Placing too much atention on her will actually drive her away and gifts and the like can seem to be an obligation upon them to return the favour which they won’t want to in any way.
Sounds like a girl who would prefer to keep things at arms length for a while but who just wants to enjoy life- give her a measure of fun and a measure of dissonance, wher you focus on something else entirely-if she is interested enough she will come to you , if not you will just be saving your self the trouble that will come your way if you persist in trying to either get close to her or even just understand her- as for the latter i recommend you don’t even try, that’s a labyrinth thatchanges daily , no offense to any of the ladies on the forum , or elsewhere for that matter!

one last thing- you aren’t stuck for the simple reason that you don’t need to choose where to go , your character and disposition will guide you, even if it’s to another girl’s arms- trust me you will be happier if you follow yourself than a butterfly, no matter how beautiful she seems to you!

She was not your first love, she was a girl you had a dance with. Get over yourself.

You seem to get really excited about just about everything. Maybe that’s just your writing style, but seriously dude, chill. You only recently realised girls are, like, human, and they have insecurities and personality flaws and shit. I congratulate you on your new insight, but let me tell you, you will fail at the relationship thing again before you get it right. There’s a lot more to learn, grasshopper.

So stop getting worked up about your “horrible rejection”. At least she was clear! You know where you stand with this girl and you can move on. Don’t get worked up about her, and don’t get worked up over how worked up you are over her. Just go for a walk or something. Have a wank. You have a life to get on with, don’t wallow in this nonsense for ten years just to write some dumb song like Garth Brooks. Please!

Move on.