I live in a cycle of self sabotage when it comes to anxiety, eating and general wellbeing. I am very unhappy with how I look and feel, and end up eating myself into depression. I have had runs in the past of motivation and weight loss, but the last few months have felt like a downward spiral. I can’t seem to launch myself into a good healthy eating or exercise routine. I hate the way I look in all of my clothes and it makes me want to hide and not be seen by other socially. I also suffer with anxiety, and although recently it has been better, my self-esteem and low mood due to my weight has been bringing it down. I don’t think I like myself at the moment and I am worried my relationship will suffer.