Hi Flamer,
I am with Kay – you need to start with something to find the thing that gets you to your true passion. You wont find it doing nothing. Keep moving.
I know you dont want to be an adult, but guess what, you are! So you can either deny it and fight against it and hate the years OR accept that you have become an adult – someone who can take care of himself, work, pursue friendships and relationships and grow into a stronger human being. You can do it! Just be patient and keep at it and you can do it!
You also HAVE to exercise, it will help you feel heaps better. Start with anything, even 20 mins walk 3 times a week.It doesnt help that you spend a lot of times indoors.
I am a bit concerned that you have felt like this for 8 years – have you spoken to a professional about it? You might need to speak to someone to get some of your motivation and mojo back (be there, done that).
Flamer, you have been blessed with a life and amazing possibilities of a tomorrow. Please dont wish it away. Lots of people out there would kill to have what you have. Please make tiny little changes and I promise you will see your attitude, your thoughts and life change. It takes a bit of effort but the results last a lifetime 🙂
Lily.