Bonjour Tee
How you been?
How you gonna enjoy your weekend?

I have good news. I finally got a full-time job. Fully remote. as I wanted. In my field. Finally, so many months of stress and anxiety is no more, and I feel like I can actually breath.

I always return to gratitude and realign with my deeper faith. And it does help, it makes a big difference for me.

I can resonate with that. How’s your heath now?

specially your grandmother whom you felt so close to 🙁 I am really sorry, SereneWolf. Has she been sick recently?

No. She always used to say that I won’t suffer before my death. and that’s what happened. She didn’t suffer. cardiac arrest in sleep.

Maybe he is changed by both of his parents dying within a relatively short time, and his own sickness… Perhaps him becoming more meek helps you feel less anger towards him (in addition to having processed your anger via journaling and therapy)?

I guess so..

You were very young (and you still are btw), and you had great achievements behind you. And yet, there was always a feeling that you’re not doing enough, that you’re not good enough. Which is your false core belief. And perhaps it’s still active within you?

I’m pretty sure its active. Like you know even though now I got a job now I still feel like that’s complex. it’s bigger company now role is lil bit more complex you have to do this and that? would you even be able to handle? and I feel like not competent enough and feel overwhelmed, I didn’t even start yet I feel like that. and I don’t know why but this sometimes out of nowhere this feeling of “don’t mess this one” So instead actually be in the present and start learning and unfold with time I sometimes feel that fear and anxiety.

And another thing because of job stress I wasn’t even thinking about relationship side but now I suddenly this feeling, wave of loneliness. it’s make me doomscroll for hours just so I can distract myself

Hope your plantar fasciitis will resolve over time.. just as a side note: if it needs rest in the acute phase, do rest

Yes I’ve been resting. Its much better now I think.