Hi M
I think it’s understandable that you’re feeling confused by her behaviour. She is treating you differently from a friend.
It might be worth having a conversation with her about boundaries so you can actually stay friends if she doesn’t want to date.
It’s not healthy for her to lead you on. She might not be doing it intentionally, but that is currently what is happening with the special treatment.
How are you feeling about all of this? It can be tough having feelings for someone who isn’t genuinely interested in dating.
Wishing you all the best! 🙏