Dear Andrea:

“We (Sarah and Andrea) then lived together for another 2  years  but somehow I felt our story was not moving I felt everything was going flat… I met a girl (Jenna)  and my heart skip a good few bits. She was stunning… 2 month me and Jenna we end up making love ( the best experience of my life so far).. There was so much chemistry and the feeling of being in love made me walk above the cloud… It really felt so good…”-

– Our emotional experience of life really is all about FEELINGS (the lyrics f the song Feelings come to mind:  “Feelings, wo-o-o feelings Wo-o-o, feelings Again in my arms- Feelings, wo-o-o feelings- Wo-o-o feelings- Wo-o-o”). If I had an offer right now, to feel pleasure from now on and forevermore, I’ll take it in a heartbeat!

You had wonderful feelings being with Sarah and then the feelings were gone. You then had even more wonderful feelings being with Jenna, and then life happened: “(Jenna) contacted her ex boss which gave her a job but did not make her a contract.. I got hired in her previous work place. Then covid hit” – if only life could be kept in the bedroom with Jenna, pleasurable forevermore, right?

“she broke up with me… went back to live together… she then broke up again with me… We still now carry on to seeing each other once a week to have fun… it is like she get the cake anyway whenever she want because I’m so dumb and it feel so good that I’m craving for it ( her company in the bed and out)” –

– because life always happen in ways that don’t feel good, it takes more than pleasurable, sensual  feelings to keep us going, such as the feelings of contentment and pride in oneself, which happens after we do the right thing for ourselves and for someone else (it doesn’t feel pleasurable at the time of doing the right thing), the feeling of humble-pride for successfully practicing self control instead of impulsively hurting another person, the feeling of … elation, really, for making life more than about sensual pleasures.

What do you think/ feel?

anita