Dear Reynan,

I am so happy you shared. I am currently going through the same thing. However, I seem to make this repeated mistake. I know alcohol is no good for me!!! I quit drinking, start taking care of myself, pick up healthy habits… then one day I think having one drink will be ok – and it is. So, a few weeks later – I do it again. Maybe this time, two drinks. I slowly start increasing the amount I drink over a course of weeks/months, until boom! I do something completely stupid, humiliating, and embarrassing.  Things get so out of control. I drink to the point of blacking out and I don’t remember anything. It’s hard to have to be responsible and accountable for something you have done but have no account of. Everyone knows that’s not who you are but whatever they tell you, you have done; you did. ugh.

I really hope you’re doing better and I am glad nothing worse came of your night of drinking. I hope your friend has forgive you and you have forgiven yourself. Things will get better. Take it one minute at a time. Good luck!!!

Anita, I have read a few of your replies to people. I want to say thank you for showing so much compassion to others. I know for me it’s been helpful.