Dear Victoria:

Maybe you lost your dream of being a singer because of the latest happening in your parents’ lives. Only two months ago your father’s Borderline Personality Disorder behaviors got worse.

You wrote in later July that your mother has been “very unhappy for 30 years. She’s been wanting to get a divorce ever since but every time this subject came up, my father would react, as always, very dramatically” and she didn’t get that divorce. In a way she had a dream: to  divorce your father.

Two months ago that dream came close to being materialized, but I am guessing she is still living with him, still unhappy and not even close to making her dream come true. Maybe you are so disappointed that.. once again, she gave in and did not do the courageous thing, and you therefore lost your own dream of being a singer. Can this be the case?

anita

Dear Victoria:

Not connecting the threads and issues (and if you want to look deeper into this issue of this thread with me):

You wrote regarding what your dream of being a singer did for you: “I became energized, filled with positivity and I’d be able to get into a state of flow while singing… I always loved to write lyrics and sing my own songs”.

But for a while, feeling drained and exhausted, you no longer want to sing, no longer enjoying it, “but I just don’t feel the need to prove anything to anyone”-

– Before,  singing was about loving life, enjoying life, being in a state of flow. But at some point along the way, singing became something to prove to someone?

anita