Hello everybody,

this is my first post here and I don’t really know how to start. There’s this thing that’s been bugging me for a while now. I have a best friend and we’ve been friends like since kindergarden and I’m not really sure how healthy our friendship is. We are always good for a while, we have fun, we talk a lot about everything but then after some time we start annoying each other. I feel like she’s using me sometimes and every time she says something my mind will instantly say that it’s not right even if in some cases deep down I know she’s right. I always refuse her help because it feels like she’s just helping me so that I would help her next time. And then I feel like she’s using me when she asks for help. But sometimes she’s really asking for absurd stuff that she could easily do on her own but she’s always saying that I shouldn’t make a big deal out of it, that’s what friends are for but I can’t help I don’t even wanna help her sometimes and I know it sounds bad. And if I don’t wanna do something I’m the bad one and she tries to manipulate me into doing it anyway even if she says she’s not doing anything that she can’t force me into doing anything and that everything I do is my decision but she really makes me feel very bad about myself. Maybe there’s some problem with me I don’t know I just wanted to finally let it out and maybe you’ll have some opinions on it. Everything would help.