I’m 17 and my parents are way too tough and abusive. The legit interfere in eveything i do and keep commenting about it and give unwanted suggestions telling that my choices are bad and have to change my character. They interfere when it comes to dressing up or my music preferences. Apart from this, they put me down and scold me in front of my teachers and friends. My dad is embarassingly boastful that I cant even go along with him outside or introduce him to my friends. He thinks that everything around him should go according to his words. Whenever I oppose to his ideas he gets really angry and hits me with a steel hanger or also kicks me. He never wants to see me being independent and does not encourage me to do what i love. He judges me and puts me down whenever i excel in something and blackmails me that he would not allow me to take up my preferred subjects for my graduation. I live in India, where the society is patriarchal, thus is totally against me and my parents are way too conservative and hate me expolring me things in life and they want me to do ONLY what they say. If not, i have to undergo verbal and physical abuse and im tired of it. I am going through this for the past 5 years and i tried talking to them and i miserably failed. My mom too is super abusive and never stands on my side. I go through abuse and i have no one to talk abou this. Since my grades are usually low and are dropping recently because i cant take up this stress and cant talk to anyone i am venting this out here. Please help. Even this text i am sending here is secretive that i have to delete my history. They are very doubtful and always check whatever i am doing. They hate me so much that they asked me to go die. I gave up on suicidal thoughts because i want to become a better person and take my revenge when i am financially stable, since that i am not for now, i am being quiet. Please help me. I am depressed.