Dear Nellie:
There is an ongoing and very active thread titled: Trying to deal with anxiety and loss after relationship breakup”- it is on page 1 of thread titles, same page where your thread appears. I wonder if reading from and maybe posting in that interactive thread will help you.
You are welcome to post on your thread anytime as well. We communicated before a bit regarding this relationship, on your first thread on the matter, May this year. I hope you do move on and feel better soon!
anita