Dear Kennisha:

Welcome back! I read your posts in your May 2017 thread and was surprised that I didn’t respond to your last post there. I must have missed it. If I knew it was there I would have responded to it back then (sometimes a post is submitted but does not reflect on the page listing the  topics).

“my own MOM doesn’t wanna talk to me anymore!”- is it a bad thing?

“if I can’t trust my own blood, who can I trust?”- those who are worthy of your trust, not your family.

“I just don’t want to give up this anger I have for my family”- anger has a purpose, to protect us. For as long as you feel threatened by your family, you will continue to feel anger at them. For as long as part of you is waiting for them, for your mother, I think, to talk to you again, to love you, you will also continue to feel angry at her.

“shouldn’t parents want to protect their children from hard? Not perpetuate it”- yes, they should. But too often they don’t. Or they protect their children from one kind of harm (most commonly hunger and cold) but perpetuate severe harm otherwise. What is the point, after all, to have a fed, clothed body that is … not yours (“My body wasn’t my own, my mind, my spirit”).

There is hope for you though because in my case too, my body and mind wasn’t my own. Taking possession of my mind, that is a healing process you can still take on. Healing is part of nature, it is available for you as it is for me.

anita