Dear Frey:
The emotional attachment you have for him is similar to any other attachment, like the one he has to weed. Like anyone’s attachment to a drug or an activity. It feels bad without the object of our attachment, be it a person or a drug. Or an activity. We go through a withdrawal. In your case, your withdrawal includes sleeping little, not keeping your room neat, crying a lot and not doing well in school.
My advice is that no matter how you feel, get your room organized, so one task at a time. Endure the bad feelings and function best you can, do what you need to do so to have a better life.
One step, one day at a time. Post here anytime you’d like and I will reply.
anita