Hi Alissa,

Could you specify which part of the issue it is that you’re looking to get help with from the TinyBuddha community?  It sounds like you are in a lot of pain both physically and emotionally and that you are feeling very alone and isolated.  Sometimes when we have serious things going on that aren’t always visible to others, it can be really hard and frustrating to hear other people complain about things that to us seem like “easier” or “better” problems to have, so I can understand how you would feel jealous and even angry about it.

I would like to help in any way I can– are you looking for suggestions on easing physical pain?  are you looking for someone to just listen and understand what you are going through?  If you could be more specific, it would help others to chime in as well.  There are so many people on here that could help and likely can relate as best they can to what is happening for you.  You’re not alone in this, even though it may often feel like it!

Amy