You are the purpose of life so wherever path you chose has purpose. Therefor the question of purpose is unskillful and will not help you decide what you ‘should’ do.

In life there is no should’s only what you do and do not do. Reading your post, you have already decided that you will regret not choosing the choice you don’t make. It is not you’re your choice that will lead to regret but your decision to experience regret in the imagined future. To make your choice based on a imagined future is unskillful.

The imagined future is keeping you from seeing the trees from the forest leaving you overwhelmed by fear. Fear is more often then not False Evidence Appearing Real. The task then is to identify the trees and focus on one issue at a time. You will find that you know what you need to do. Trust your intuition and don’t look or hold back. Your future cannot be controlled so to fear uncertainty and doubt is unskillful. Trust your deeper sense of self and doors will open… “We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us… If you follow your bliss you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while, waiting for you, and the life that you ought to be living is the one you are living. Follow your bliss and don’t be afraid, and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be.” ― Joseph Campbell

We must put our confidence in truth. But that doesn’t mean sitting back, and waiting for the truth to shine from above, as one might sit back and wait for the day to break. It means following with devoted obedience the truth we have seen as true, with an entire confidence in G_d, that it will correct, clear and redirect our vision, to the perception of a freer and deeper truth. Go with the truth you have, and let it carry you into collision with the hard rocks of fact, and then you’ll learn something. – Austin Farrer

Hello Therlie,

Take a look at the below videos-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_4zwRhxHbc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88-arE6pVZo

Hope it gives some guidelines and pointers in the required direction.

Best wishes,

~VJ

A curtain amount of worry about the future can be helpful in deciding on what to do. The worry, or let us call it concern, shows us what we want to achieve and then perhaps the steps needed to get their… but that is only possible if you learn how to pull back your consciousness to the present. Leaving your consciousness fixated on the worry and then deciding that the future will be one of regret could create that future. Think of your consciousness as a loyal dog that needs to be trained. It will run wild if you let it, and there are times for that, however teaching it to walk beside you when called is how you will get to where you want to go.

If you think back you will see that you have handled everything that has come your way. You may not have liked having to deal with some of the stuff that came your way or some of the outcomes yet even in those cases you have handled. Perhaps there are things you may wish to have done differently… and in those you learned from, no reason for regret. There is no reason to believe that you won’t continue to handle whatever your choices lead to or don’t.

I can tell from your posts that you know what you want to do. The fear may be keeping you from making that fully conscious but you know you know. Trust yourself and go for it without regret.  Where you end up will be different then anything you imagined and as long as you follow your truth and continue to learn it will be amazing.