So it all started when my boyfriend and i went to a friend’s Place to watch a movie. It was us and two more people who are also colleagues of us. ( so we were two men and three ladies)

there’s this one girl she’s very attractive and very liked by all and I always really liked and admired her. Well not anymore.

So we decided to watch a horror movie which I’m secretely afraid but don’t show it and play it cool.

the other girl on the other hand was really afraid and showed it by screaming and hiding behind her pillow. My boyfriend caught it and couldn’t stop teasing her. He would always be like look and observe her all the time. At one point going over to her and tickle her. He would make comments like: well if you find it so scary you have to watch the second part in the theater! With me?” To which she said no and he was then asking her why that he thought she loved going to the cinema! She was telling us that she had to get a bed from the basement of the hospital (we all work there) and was so afraid she Came back and would Tell her colleaguess she couldnt find one to which my boyfriend replied “well then you have to go again” laughed and added the”„with me?” Again! Which she was ignoring! To me it seemed as if he was testing the waters with her!

he couldn’t stop teasing her and was offering to teach her kung fu if she was afraid to which she declined. At the end he asked her if she wanted to see “it” in theatres to which she declined again and he wouldn’t let it pass and offered to pay for her if she would Go! The whole night he pretty much payed me know mind which on that own was really hurtful! Before that evening I wouldn’t even think of the two like that but now I can’t help myself! When we arrived at my place he couldn’t stop talking about how fun it was and that he didn’t know she was such scaredy cat which he found hilarious! He then added that he had to bring his PlayStation next time and play resident evil with her which i ignored but he had to add that it would ne so much funnier with her than with me! And that hurted me so much I couldn’t take ist anymore and flipped out on him! At first he didn’t understand and eventually he apologized and said he didn’t mean anything by it! I on the other Hand have trouble to believe him since he behaved kinda different! usually he is very quiet and reserved and would be on his phone when we are around others but this time he was acting really out of character! It doesn’t help that a while before that he told me that he found her sexy and way before me he was kinda thinking of her as a potential girlfriend! At that Time I wasn’t thinking anything by it and didn’t care but now it’s totally different! This whole incident makes me question him and making me insecure! Since so can’t stop comparing myself to her and see the similarities and likes between them! They do have a lot in colleagues with his eyes and staring a lot at other women while I am talking to him and it’s driving me mad! He’s talking about how much he loves me but is behaving like this! I admit I am very insecure and he knows that but isn’t thinking while in those instances! I am torn because I feel kinda betrayed and don’t want to deal with the hurt no more but at the same time it’s hard for me to quit since I am a little afraid to making a mistake eventually! But I’m still mad and confused!

At that evening I saw the Connection between them and it makes me feel insecure!

It‘s like they are identical! They talked and shared their experience with drugs and it led to them losing their drivers lisence! He seemed excited about it and was very Open since he found someone who had the same experience! Booth habe younger siblings that Love Soccer! And these two Love the same video Games and talked about that too! I noticed that they eben Share the same needy wish for a baby! Its scary! I noticed so many similatities between them and saw the Connection that is missing between me and my boyfriend! And I just cant Cope with the fact that there is a woman who would make a better Match for him than me! And it makes me feel depressed and O feel like Breaking um with him everyday Even if it will Break his Heart