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Hey, so i wanted to let you know that i really appreciate honesty. And since u are ignoring my texts i will give u a little piece of my truth. Right now its not my anxiety but me that wants to say this to you. Youve been saying that you are a respectfull man. But in fact you are saying one thing but doing the other. And i know i shouldnt have expectations but since u are a grown man i expected some honesty.

These are my thoughts.”

Should i send him this? I really feel like i want to get it of my chest. I want him to know its not okay.

Dear Amy,

First of i want to say that im really amazed by how sweet the people are on this forum. Ive never put something online before and now im so happy i did.

I did send the text, and like you are saying i had to do it for myself. I was doubting to send the texg almost all day. But then the thought “no, he cannot think that its okay to treat people like this.” I thought that it was not okay! So i did it. I send it and this is how he replied. ; ( btw he is spanish so his english is not that good) Good to know your thoughts. Now my thoughts. I think you are a going to fast in everything, the same day we say bye in the station you was already making me feel blamed accusing me of violateing things nobody sing for. Then, I try to be friendly and nice trying to reply as many messages from you as I can, and now again I have to feel bad cuz you don’t have 100%, I like and is cool to be with you, but try to be in my shoes: it’s been 5 days since and 2 of them you was making me feel blamed, in the male head that’s mean a chance of 4 years of drama out of 10 years relationship. Do you think that is healthy? I am also being honest and don’t take it wrong. – and this is how is replied ; I understand what you are saying and I apologized for how i behaved and for how i made you feel. – what do u mean by you dont have 100%? And i understand it looks like im going to fast and i also understand that bc of the convo. I dont want to go to fast, and what i dont want no drama. Im not like that. Im only dealing with some personal things. But like i said, this wasnt any anxiety talking but me. I dont feel like u respect me. And yes Goodmorning. – so he replied ; 100% of my atencion – i replied; Oh, okay well i dont want ur attention all the time. I just want honesty and communication – he replied ; Yes, I comunícate but I have a limit of typed words per day you know, I to ensure my time is not wasted with phone. I know we are diferentes but like you like when people accept you are not alive without your phone, i like when people accept i like a normal life. – ( i think this is very childish, this man is 31 ) Yes, I comunícate but I have a limit of typed words per day you know, I to ensure my time is not wasted with phone. I know we are diferentes but like you like when people accept you are not alive without your phone, i like when people accept i like a normal life. – i replied ; Communication doesnt have to go trough text. You can call, or meet up. So i think thats not really an excuse to be ignorig me. And im not stuck to my phone like u might be. – so this is most of it and then it went quiet.

Now all of the sudden he would like to meet up tomorrow to talk? – i am interested in what he has to say. Although im not sure why. I told him i would meet him after work.

Lisa

Dear Amy,

i was thinking exactly what you are saying! I also do think that we want different things in life. But we also have a connection there. But i also agree when you are saying that i wasnt feeling respected or comfortable so i will be paying attention to how i feel when im with him tonight. But this is my problem, what if i feel anxiety, i have this thing where i just fight it, and i cant control it. Ive  always been told that i worry to much. So i feel like when i do its not needed when in the moment it actually is. If this makes any sense.

– i really like putting my feelings out here. Thanks Amy

• This reply was modified 7 years, 4 months ago by Lisa.