I hate this feeling… I know I’m overreacting I know I am. But this feels very real to me. Sometimes it feels like they only want to talk to me when they’re single. It’s not that I’m not happy for them. Well, I have some friends who get new boyfriends as often and JC Penney throws a sale, but that I’m used to. But one finally got someone who could treat them like they mean something and that’s important to me. I couldn’t have wished that on a better person… But it’s still lonely on this side. I’d prayed for real love for all of us, I just hadn’t counted on it happening without me. And I was used to this in high school, assuming the position, to wait and be around until they need me again. But we’re adults now. I don’t want to be more important than these guys, that’s absurd. But I also hadn’t counted on being forgotten about. Having to meme tag and snap something every once a month so as to remind them I was still alive. Asking to drive out to visit every couple months to get my girl time in only to spend it as a third wheel. Having one ask me if I’m staying over only for her to text me that they’ll be going out to brunch before I wake up so she’ll catch me next time. Watching them drive past me to the next town over to spend the day, even with each other #noboysallowed, and finding out they were here via snap story or #latergram. I would never forget them. My phone’s always charged. Give me your heartbreak and bad days, small victories and funny stories. We’ve always promised each other that. It just feels like they all went out the window when their relationship status changed.