Dear Kat:
It might be the wrong job for you: too many things happening at the same time. It requires someone good at multi-tasking, and not everyone is. A fitting job for you may be one where just one thing happens at any one time.
It doesn’t make sense to conclude, based on your difficulty with multitasking, that you are worthless, it is just that there is no FIT between you and the job.
And there hasn’t been a fit yet with a man in your life, not in the last two relationships at the least. A fit would be with a man who will treat you respectfully and be faithful to you.
Seek a good fit in a job and in a man, what says you?
anita