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How to be grateful without being stuck?

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    Giulia
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    I know this might to some seem like an odd question.. what does gratitude have to do with being stuck, but bear with me.
    I am stuck because I have a deeply ingrained belief that if I do what I want to do for myself and my children, then I am not grateful for what I have. This is something that permeates all decisions in my life, trying to please others and prove that I am positive and grateful – which conversely leads to me being very unhappy and sulking! SO I do not achieve what I want anyway.

    I do not do what I need to do because I feel guilty.

    I want to stop trailing around after the father of my children, I do not want to live somewhere for my extended families convenience to see my children if I do not resonate with the culture. I want to choose based on what is right, to make conscious decisions. I want to be free of shame.

    #102450
    Anonymous
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    Dear bigglasses:

    Tell me about your shame: what is it about?

    Regarding being grateful: did your mother and/ or your father told you repeatedly when you were a child- and on, maybe- that you should be grateful to them, making you feel guilty for anger you felt towards them, making you doubt that you have the right to see them (and your childhood) as anything but something to be grateful about?

    anita

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    Giulia
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    Thanks Anita, sorry I’ve taken so long to get to this but I somehow missed it.

    I would say yes, certainly I felt no I was shamed for having emotions and not wanting to do things that my parents wanted me to do. I don’t remember much of my childhood, but I do remember that been times when my father would say now look what you’ve done you’ve upset your mother, that sort of thing. I ever remember always feeling different and odd, feeling like I was a burden, I was too much. I would be called to clingy, a drama queen, and attention seeker but the shame is the something different? I just found ashamed of being me. I feel like I can’t do anything that I want I have to think about everybody else, I have to please everybody else otherwise I am on grateful for I am selfish. I’m selfish… Yes selfish is a strong belief – ingrained.. . I have to keep myself small. And I couldn’t be happy because if I was happy then I would be shamed. And I think that is now why I choose not to let myself be happy, I keep myself small.

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